DON'T act like you "care". save yourself the work.

so i just took my cpap with my ics worker to the health supplies store for them to look at why it doesn't work. he said right away when he took the cpap machine out of the plastic bag it was in, "well.. first of all- you should never transfer it with water in it." the ics worker packed the cpap machine with the water from the night before in it. he asked me what the problem was i experienced with it and i said, "it usually doesn't turn on at all and if it does- it says LEAK DETECTED." then he said that he couldn't tell if it was just because i transferred it filled with water, but he'd try to turn it on when it dried and if he could get it working- he'd give me a call or if it wouldn't turn on- he'd give me a call to get a loner because he was sure my insurance would pay for it. it's kinda annoying to see all the views on this particular blog thread- i'm sure most of them are from my mom pretending to be concerned, so she can tell all my grandma's friends and our family members about what's going on with me so it looks like she actually cares. she really has no fuckin idea why it's so important for me to have a cpap to help me sleep. she just assumes that because my grandma used to have one- IT'S GOTTA BE RIGHT FOR ME TO HAVE ONE ALSO! tell me mom- WERE YOU THIS CONCERNED ABOUT ME WHEN MY DAD WAS ANGRY AND DRUNK AROUND YOU AND YOU HELD ME UP WHILE HE KICKED YOU TO BLOCK HIS KICKS FROM HITTING YOUR STUPID ASS?! NO? yeah that's what i thought. stfu and mind your business. i'm not just like grandma. i'm not just sweeping this selfish neglect under the rug like she did because SHE WASN'T THE ONE TO FEEL THE KICK TO THE ABDOMEN AND SHE DIDN'T HAVE TO GO THROUGH SURGERY AFTER SURGERY BECAUSE OF THAT SHITTY ASS PARENTING. SHE DOESN'T EXPERIENCE PTSD FROM THAT SHITTY PARENTING. YOU'RE TOO FUCKING STUPID TO APOLOGIZE TO ME. that requires too much work and intelligence! i'm not exactly sure of the reason why you and amy stalk me to the point where i can't take a shit without you two idiots talking about it. i don't lie and say good things about either of you on my blog. even though i'm pretty sure i read that emotionally immature moms stalk their children. i've chosen to stop lying- so if i would be doing that shit, i'd be lying. i didn't chose to have a selfish, immature, and uncaring mom like YOU. stop making me regret it more every fucking day. i never thought you'd be this much of a damn problem. i'm just gonna unplug both of you eventually and YOU'LL NEVER HEAR FROM ME AGAIN. you guys are too much anxiety for my mental health and i have even stopped talking to one of my best friends for my mental health in the past- YOU TWO ARE NEXT.. BOTH of you. i'm headed to spanish class in about an hour. trying to remember if there's anything more i need to do that i forgot.. hm..